Your purpose after your heartbreak...

If you gotten this far and actually went through my music you'll notice that even after all this time I am still writing and making music. A few months back I was in a relationship with someone who I had bought a ring for, and the week prior to us breaking up I had celebrated her birthday. I set up a room with flowers and gifts and to be truly honest I was so happy, and a week later she leaves me like I was nothing...All I did was love her, be there for her and to be abandoned hurt so much....

After that months went by and I went into a depression and I am still sad as I write this...But if I give up now, everything that I've done would have been for not. For a second I thought I would marry her and she would have my child. My confidence feels deflated and the thought of meeting someone feels foreign and I don't trust myself emotionally as of late. This has also affected my work, being that I am ashamed as if I am a failure.

It almost feels as if I hate myself, but I know I should know better. To conclude, I must get up from this, if not then I might as well fade, but I am Shadow AL and I feel my purpose. Yes this chapter in my life didn't go as expected, but I still live and with that I have a chance to live out my dream and find a wife and children of my own. Though it may seem like a basic dream to me this has so much meaning...

God please guide me through and teach me to be humble. I am hurt and feel broken...I just want to heal...I don't want to waste my potential being bitter. God have mercy on my soul and forgive me for being so weak...allow me to "KEEP FLOWING".

to "KEEP FLOWING".